幸福的风

经过篮球场就会不知觉的想起以前的点点滴滴

彷彿一切回到你还在

发现只是一场梦

你是回忆的风

也已经离开我

我会一直记著那

幸福回忆

Hectic last week of my degree life

2 reports

1 assignment

1 quiz

All in a week

and YAY! managed to make it through 

with proper time management

and much needed luck, guidance and support

hehehe

Had burger @ Big Hug Burger on Monday as a reward for own self

For making it this far

For almost-graduation

:)

*pats head*

The girls

Mario Beef burger!

I loveeeee fries

Burger was okay

I had juicier beef patty before

Our target now? To try out other different burger joints~!

:D 

*ahem ahem*

Weighing scale gave me sad sad news

I should restrict myself from eating too much

I should go on diet

So that I don't look to fat in swimsuit during Melaka trip

....

Jiang jiang jiang jiang!

Things have been finalized

*execept itinerary*

Something I look forward to after exams!

:)

hehehe

Prepared small gifts for my dears

as I know I will be very sad when we part ways

but I am sure we will keep in contact~!

Just finished the last report of my degree life.

The suckiest of all report

-.-

That marks the end of my degree life!

Bye bye lecturers

Bye bye classes

T.T

Hello study week

Hello exams

Hello flu

-.-

Ouch.

Will be officially ending my degree life in less than a month

yet many things for future have not been decided!

Aahh. I need guidance to complete them pls

oh, and motivation.

hehe

Love is 4+1

Read this from Joanna's blog

Love is not just a feel or "He's cute!"
It is something more.
I don't believe love at first sight.

The phone rang. 

She was sobbing badly on the other end of the line.

“I’m going over,” I told her and hung up before she could protest.

1am. It was going to be a long night ahead..

She was still crying when she opened the door. She looked so broken, so vulnerable. I didn’t have to know what was wrong, I just held her in my arms. She cried even more.

“He broke up with me,” she finally said.

I just kept quiet as she let it all out.. questions, tears, anger, hurt.

“Why does love have to hurt so much?”

“No, love.. doesn’t hurt,” I said gently.

“So says the guy who’s been single forever? What would you know about love,” she jabbed.

“So says the guy who’s been your friend though Mr now-ex-#4,” I grinned. “Love doesn’t hurt you.. it’s the person that doesn’t know how to love or appreciate love that hurts you. But love never hurts,”.

“You won’t understand, Matt,” she sighed, “you’ve never been in love…”

“That’s not entirely true, you know..”

“Wait what- so who’s this girl I’ve never heard abou-“

“What did you love about #4 anyway?” I interjected.

“I don’t know… he is just perfect. And I love him so much,”

“But you don’t know what it is that you love about him?”

“It’s just.. the feeling when I’m with him. It always felt right with him. He made me feel loved and I loved him too,”

“That’s it? Just a feeling?”

“Well.. yea. What were you expecting me to say?”

“.. something more specific, maybe? I mean, if you thought he’s so ‘perfect’, why’d he still chea- erm, why’d he leave you?”

“Because I’m just not good enough for him? I don’t know..” she paused. “What is love to you then…”

“Hmm.. to me, being together or in love with someone should be more that just a feeling.. it should also be about mutual understanding, acceptance, respect, commitment and trust.”

“That’s what all couples would hope and want their relationship to be like, Matt. But expectations and reality don’t always go together..”

“Or maybe.. someone’s just not trying?”

“Well if you think love is so simple.. why haven’t you been with anyone all these years?”

“I never said love was simple.. but I guess the reason why I’ve never been with anyone yet is because.. I already know exactly what I want,”

“You have.. a checklist?”

“Sorta. It’s not the typical kinda ‘I’d like a girl with long hair, nice smile, etc’ superficial checklist though,”

“Oh. What kind of list is it then?”

“It’s like.. a concept of love. Of what it is about a girl that will make me fall completely in love with her. A concept that has more than three specific reasons that would answer any question as to why I love her.”

“You have a concept of love?” she laughed. “Love isn’t a theory, Matt.. you can’t just classify love by a concept or definition, you simply feel it with your heart..”

“But you see.. the reason why I think there are so many broken hearts, is because people merely jump into a relationship when their heart feels a certain something towards someone. But I don’t think that’s love, that’s merely an infatuation. Personally, I believe there are more than three reasons and aspects that actually determines whether we really are truly in love beyond the superficial ‘I don’t know why I love him/her.. I just do’ reason,”

“That makes sense. So what exactly is this.. ‘concept’ of yours about?” she asked, genuine curiosity replacing her initial skepticism.

“I call it the 4+1 theory. The aspects that will determine if it’s true love or just a fickle infatuation. It’s based on this idea that whenever we like someone, if we really go deeper into what is it that draws us to him or her, we’d be able to find that one specific reason. That’s not love though. That’s merely an attraction or infatuation. But when more than three of the aspects from this theory are present, you’ll be pretty sure that it’s more than just a feeling. For me personally, this determines if I’ll ever fall in love with a girl…”

Mind. Heart. Body. Soul.

The mind aspect, to put it simply, is her intellect. But I don’t mean the academic smarts.. it’s the way she thinks, processes and analyzes things way beyond a shallow self centeredness. It’s the way she puts across her thoughts, not for winning an argument’s sake, but to really try to understand or even sensibly debate opposing views that might leave anyone reflecting on her words or challenge me to think differently. It’s the way she carries herself off with an aura of sophistication and enigmatic charm and no matter how much I might think I already know her or have her figured out, she’ll still surprise me with something unexpected. Good surprise. I like intellect. Personally, it takes a little more to intrigue me and stimulate my senses. If I can connect with someone and talk endlessly about the concept of nothing, then, only then, will we be able to talk about everything else.. and I think that’s incredibly alluring,”

“Ooh.. so my best friend’s sapiosexual too,” she teased. “But what about her likes and dislikes or like her personality.. does that go under the mind aspect too?”

“Well, that’s where the heart aspect comes in. The heart represents who she is by what she values or cares about. The things she likes, the things she dislikes. What really matters to her, as well as her insecurities and fears..”

She bit her lower lip - thinking. “But what if him knowing about my past and all my insecurities scares him or drives him away? Or what if he ever uses all of these against me if someday things go bad between us?”

“Erm.. you do realize that it doesn’t really matter now because whether or not he ever knew, he already chose to leave you right? But.. if he still or ever tries to hurt you in any way, then he is a fucking bastard and I will punch his face,”. I really meant it.

“I don’t think he even cares about me anymore,” she sighed, “maybe he never really did.. we were so.. different. I don’t know why I never actually realize it before,”

“Maybe because then, you were too ‘blinded by love’ to see, or you chose to conveniently ignore the differences. Honestly though, I think it’s critical for two people to understand each other’s heart and learn to accommodate each other’s differences rather than simply turning a blind eye or deaf ear ‘because I love him and that’s all that matters’. Because if two people are too different in the way they think, behave or live.. I reckon it will become a huge problem when the infatuation bubble bursts.”

“I don’t really understand..” she said.

“Let me just ask you this.. does he know how passionate you are towards the arts and music?"

“Well, no.. not really. He’s more the sports kind of guy and doesn’t like theatre and stuff so I didn’t want him to get bored if I talked to him about things he isn’t interested in..”

“Then i’m guessing he probably also doesn’t care or know the little things about you. Like how you’re afraid of the dark and why you’re actually scared of darkness.. how family and relationships are really important to you.. that ice cream is your happy pill. You know, I’m even going to bet that he doesn’t know you go to bed every night, clutching your phone just hoping and waiting for him to text you goodnight..”

She started to tear again, but I continued..

“You see, it’s not a matter of whether it bores him or not.. it’s a matter of whether he bothers or not. I mean, if he doesn’t even know these things about you, then he really doesn’t know you at all. How then can he say he loves you?”

“But I really loved him,” she murmured softly to herself .

“I know you did. I know you still do and it’s hurting you like shit. But you need to know that for any kind of relationship to work.. two people need to give and take. Sadly, with him, it seems like you’re the one who was always giving. If he actually really loved you back as much, he’d make a greater effort to close the gap and bridge the differences between you two. He’d want to hear what you have to say, he would actually consider your opinions, your needs and your feelings. He’ll not just tell you or text you that he loves you.. he’ll show it by the things he will do or be willing to do no matter how inconvenient or silly it might be, just because.. he knows it’ll make you happier or better. To me, when it comes to a relationship, the heart aspect isn’t just a feeling or who you/he or she is anymore. It becomes two hearts beating as one. Two people wanting to understand each other.. sharing the good, the bad and possibly a future together; actually bothering and supporting each other’s feelings, values, dreams, thoughts, emotions,”

She stayed silent for a long while before she looked up, holding my gaze.. there was this unspoken tension building before she finally spoke again.

“But.. what if something that’s important to me, is not something the guy might feel same way about?"

“Then I’ll try-” I caught myself. “I mean, if I were him. I’d try. I’d make the effort.. because it’s important to you and you’re important to me,”

She remained silent again. She wasn’t crying anymore but this time, the prolonged silence was starting to grow even more deafening.

“Matt,” she finally spoke - softly, “do you believe in love at first sight?”

“No.” I said flatly.

“Oh..” she sighed. “You know what you said about mind and heart.. it’s actually starting to sink in and I’m beginning to realize that maybe these two aspects weren’t exactly a big part of my relationship with him,”

“So what made you fall in love with him then?”

“Well.. don’t laugh, but I’ve always thought that with him, it was love at first sight. I mean, there was just this spark between us from the very first time we met,”

“Cause he was hot?” I scoffed.

“No.. don’t be an idiot,” she tried to hide her smile but failed. I rolled my eyes. “Okay fine, yea maybe that. But it wasn’t the only reason!”

I raised an eyebrow.

“He was really nice too! And he was always sweet to me,“ she began her defense case. “He always made me feel happy, secure and loved without even having to try, you know?” I just continued staring at her waiting for her to go on. “Oh never mind, you’d never understand..”

“Actually.. I do. And I think I now understand what it was that made you fall in love with him.

The body aspect.

The body aspect is about physical attraction, intimacy and presence.

I don’t believe in love at first sight. I don’t believe you can just “instantly know” you’re in love or that someone’s THE one just by “first sight”. No offense, but I think the whole love at first sight concept is bullshit that only exists in movies and fairy tales. In reality, it isn’t love. That very first attraction.. is probably lust. Lust at first sight”.

“What nonsense! It’s not like I was lusting over him from the very first time I laid eyes on him! Maybe it’s the case for guys.. I mean, sex is always on a guy’s mind whenever he meets a girl right? But it’s different for girls, Matt..” she protested.

“Okay. You know what.. since you brought up the age-old guys and sex debate, I’ll tell you this secret to clarify something about guys for the first and last time.. probably 99% of guys are naturally sexual. If you ever meet any guy who tells you he isn’t sexual at all, it’s not that he’s gay – no, gays are even more horny .. he’s likely to be a liar and you should be more wary of him. BUT! Here’s the thing.. even though guys are sexual by nature, it isn’t always the only or most important thing to a guy,”

“Really?” now she raised her eyebrow with that annoying smirk on her face.

“Oh come on, you girls know how it is, plus you aren’t exactly saint-like innocent either.. sometimes you see a hot guy and you start fantasizing or making statements like ‘omg have my babies’..”

“That…” she started blushing.

“That.. is exactly my point. It’s the same with guys. We might talk and think about sex a lot more openly than girls but it isn’t always the only thing on our mind. When I said it’s lust at first sight.. I didn’t literally mean you want the guy naked and in bed. What I meant is the momentary attraction or desire– he might be hot, he might be charming, he might have smiled at you that made you feel a certain way.. but that’s not love. That’s really just a superficial physical attraction. Saying “I’m in love” right there and then just completely takes the special meaning out of the word ‘love’. If you ask me, I personally think the process of loving or falling in love with someone involves discovering the person and then perhaps developing feelings. It could happen quickly or over a longer period of time, but not at first sight,”

“Hmm.. that does make sense,” she paused and then her lips curled up forming that annoying smirk again. “Oh wow, this is the first time you and I are talking about sex huh..”.

“You never asked..”

“Tell me then.. what is sex to you?”

“Sex.. to me, is merely a physical act. I am not part of the whole “sex is sacred/taboo” camp but then, I don’t take sides with the whole bed hopping culture either,”

“I can’t believe you just said that sex is merely a physical act..” she began in a disappointed tone.

“But sex really is just a physical act if it’s without emotions or feelings. And that is why I distinguish between sex and making love, the same way I clearly differentiate ‘loving’ and ‘being in love’ with someone,”

“Oh.” this time, she smiled. She understood.

“Don’t get me wrong.. I think physical intimacy is very important in a relationship but for me, the one physical aspect that matters the most.. is the physical presence. That, is also what I reckon made you fall in love with him.

“Okay this, I really want to know…” she said.

“The physical presence is simply being there. You want him to be with you. You want to be there for him. Because just being there with or for each other makes your day, or you as a person, a little better. You may act or behave a little different when you’re with him, but in a good way – in a way that you actually feel completely comfortable, safe and you. Perhaps even without you knowing, you smile more and laugh harder. You feel real, genuine joy. And even on days when the smile can’t happen, you know you don’t have to pretend to be okay or be self conscious in front of him; because its perfectly okay to be the way you are and feel when you’re with him. He cares about you and you feel loved when you’re with him. Sometimes, there are no need for words or explanations.. just his presence, him being there for you, holding you.. makes you feel better or believe that it’s going to be okay again. Because you’re not just holding on to someone for attention or sympathy.. you actually feel and believe that you’re holding on to a part of or the rest of your life..”

Which leads to the fourth aspect – soul.

The soul aspect to me, is the deepest form and the final affirmation that should answer any remaining doubt or questions as to whether we’ve truly fallen in love with a person.

It’s when you start noticing but still appreciate all the other little things, even the flaws - especially the flaws. It’s when you truly know a person stripped down of all their walls, exposed to their soul and yet still accept and love him or her. It’s a level of understanding and acceptance that goes beyond the “honeymoon everything is perfect” period.

It’s when you finally realize this one person is someone you can always and want to tell everything to, and you want to ask and know everything of him or her as well. It’s when you actually want to share your life and trust your secrets with this person; and you can. This someone is the first person you think of when you’re happy, sad or when something significant happens. This same person is someone you can call at 1am in the morning and they’d drop everything to make time for you, staying by you till the sun rises or you’re better again - as you would for him or her as well. This person cares and will listen. Will really listen, giving you their undivided attention and genuine love; not necessarily every time but any time you need him or her. This one person makes your problem their problem and they go through it together with you just so you don’t have to go through the pain and tears alone,”

It was at this moment, for the very first time, she looked at me in a different way but said nothing.

“You see, the soul aspect..” I continued, “is when you start to see and want to share the rest of your life with this one other. And not in a clingy “I can’t live without you” way, but in a way that I can still live my life without you as I have before I met you, but now that you’ve come to exist in my life, I see the possibility of a life with you and now I actually want to make decisions and live a life, continuing to create more moments and memories together with you”.

“Well.. so.. have you met this one person yet? I mean, I’m sure it’s almost impossible to find that ‘perfect’ girl who fulfills all of your four aspects of love right?” she mumbled. I could barely hear her. She wasn’t even looking at me anymore.

“No, it is not impossible and I don’t think its asking for too much. You see the thing about these four aspects is, we often and will find one or two aspects in many different people. And that alone may be enough to make us attracted to them or develop a crush on them. But really, that is not love at all. If we like a person because “he’s cute” or “the way she thinks”, that’s just us liking the body and/or mind aspect of a person. The reality is, we are always going to meet many people who possess these different aspects of mind, heart, body or soul. But on a rare occasion when you do meet someone who possess all these four aspects.. you’ll almost definitely know that he or she is not one of many but may just be the one. So personally, I won’t settle for anything less unless she possess more than three qualities. You know people write the symbol of love as < 3 (less than three), I actually think love should be more than three.. I define it as 4+1. “

“So what’s plus one?” she asked, still not looking at me.

“Plus one…” I trailed off – unconsciously.

“Matt?” she placed her hand on top of mine, finally looking me in eye again.

“Plus one.. is something only the one who's meant to be will ever know and hold the answer to”.

暖心

~你的體貼 溫暖了我的心~

Last week of report-rushing this week

then

it will be the end

...

Am I ready to face the world?

The emo-est day

Reasons:

1. Wanna have Big Hug Burger for lunch but it was closed today.

:( :( :(

(Luckily for the great company for lunch hence feel abit better though I'm very tired from waking up early. *ahem* Last week was pig week. 5 days of weekends 2 days of weekdays so...)

2. Dotz only got 1 type of cake. No other choices

:( :(

(But I enjoyed their hot chocolate)

3. SCI is not happy. Feels stress and frustrated doing it.

:( :( :( :( :(

(Luckily I have WX *hugs*)

4. Headache is such a terrible thing. Oh, leg cramps too.

(Sheesh, yea I screw up my sleeping time so I have to suffer the consequences)

Sighh.

Things will get better.

Sooner or later.

女孩和成熟的男人在一起才会幸福

Came across this article

and some points I do agree 

:)

未成熟男人遇到困难的时候会问你怎麽办。
成熟的男人遇到困难的时候不会告诉你，而是自己去承受。

未成熟男人会考虑半天才买下你喜欢的东西。之后还会唠叨给你买过什麽。
成熟的男人是只要你喜欢，就会毫不犹豫的买下。或者暗暗买下你喜欢的，给你个惊喜。他爱你，所以会努力让你快乐。

未成熟男人总是在浪费时间。
成熟的男人总是觉的时间不够去拚搏，只想你能倖幸福福。

未成熟男人总是做出很多不负责任的事，然后想方设法逃避责任。
成熟的男人总是勇敢去承担责任，并不会做出任何伤害你的事。

未成熟男人自认为他对你很好。
成熟男人永远认为自己做的不够好。

未成熟男人为自己做错事找各种藉口。
成熟的男人会思考错误改正错误。

未成熟男人自认为他对你很好。
成熟男人永远认为自己做的不够好。

不成熟男人会冲动的为你做一些事。
成熟男人会想到做一件事会不会对你造成影响。

Link is here

Lazy worm

Arghh

Slept too late last night morning

Hence today I feel so tired

shoulder ache

...

sighh

And assignment so troublesome

T.T

Feels so stress

then I feel lazy to do any work

...

Bad week ahead!

不應該勇敢

傅在宇

*loveee*

Darling

*MORE LOVEEEEE*

WX: Why you two together jor so many days still got so much to talk wan

US: HAHAHAHA 

Never ending conversations

Common thoughts and actions at the same time different place

Common loves

:)

Thank you God

for bringing my darling to me

for letting us met and known each other

and then fall into an endless relationship

How I will miss seeing you everyday soon

:(

Darling ah darling

you yao fall asleep jor

here I am waiting for the stupid TVD 

Don't know why so laggy

Hence this random gaobai post

and thanks for the gai siu

:)

吃醋了

你只有一颗心

只需要在乎一个人

那个人就是

我

*我就是这样霸道*

Lifetime amazement

The most enjoyable show in Bangkok

I am truly amazed by this show

The stage is AWESOME and HUGE!

Imagine having two elephants walking around

or people swimming on the stage

and the stage props can be changed in a minute or two.

and the amazing sound effects!

I remember there was a part which involves rain and thunder and it feels so real! 

*AHHH*

Pure amazement

I enjoyed the most is Act 2: Journey Beyond Imagination

I miss Bangkok

Wish list

Created a wish list on my phone as I have too much to wish for right now

I want this that this that

and I'm still trying to prioritize them accordingly

Caleb took my phone and saw my wish list

-.-

and so he added a "flower-scented perfume" into my list

How cute. not. 

I think he means my DKNY pink baby (fresh blossom)

hahahaha

Yes, I'm back to the cheerful self again thanks to drama

jiang jiang jiang jiang~!

:)

Skipped class on Thursday as I don't wanna travel 10km+ just for an hour's class

and then that naughty darling keep tempting me with chilli pan mee

So I decided to drive to SS15 just for that!

and also the yummy mille crepe from Vanila Cakes

*yesh I can travel all the way for food but not class so what :P)

teehee

Love love love

My partners in crime

Bamboo charcoal

Blueberry cheese

Oreo

Italian tiramisu

Cakes are comfort food

and fat too

HAHAHA

Am excited for Melaka trip after exams

Foooood!

This would be our last trip together before we grad

:(

and before we separate to different paths

and it must be a memorable one

hence I am willing to spend more time on planning it to make it happen!

Thank you to those who help me

or at least listen to me changing my mind every second while deciding this that

Very very appreciate all my loved ones

:)

Lastly, 

HAPPY MUMMY's DAY!

Mummy I love youuu~

Random moodiness

一放工回到家开wifi 就一大堆msg

问东问西

却没有一个是关心或体贴的慰问

那么累回到家

为了什么？

Just not the right time

._.

I shall pamper myself and hide in my shell until I feel alright

Luckily still have some *heart* people to cheer my night

Even though all I do is ramble and complain alot

Thanks for listening

:)

Lazy worms

Argh, just a weekend and I'm back to being a lazy worm

Drama too much I guess!

美味的想念 

~^^~

*love*

Thanks to darling

and also Howl

hahaha

Exam in a month's time

and then graduation

...

So much to fear of

So much to think of

Where will I work?

Can I buy car?

Can I save up?

Can I realise my dream?

-----

Can I pass my exam?

T.T

hahahaha

The prices that we pay for growing up is to worry more about life.

Now I am half financially independent thanks to my part time tutor job that I've stick to for almost 3 years of my degree life. I can manage myself with no allowance from parents and enjoy being with kids. 

I will miss the place very much.

小時候 我們 哭著 哭著 就笑了
長大後 我們 笑著 笑著 卻哭了

天灰

如果你不再出現 我的世界 還有什麼可貴

可惜不夠時間 讓我們試驗 什麼叫永遠

Soon, it will be the time to say goodbye

How will destiny brings us along?

Will we still meet?

Too much uncertainty, which is what I hated.

Anyhow, it's happier planning and thinking for grad trip instead.

:)

The lazy me

So we were requesting for our report dateline extension from Prof Gary

*Settles into the class*

Yen: Prof Gary, can we have extension for our report until Monday?

Us: *puppy eyes*

Prof G: Hmm. Why?

Us: *excuses* Quiz etc etc

Prof G: No, what does all this have to do with me. I don't care what you have.

Us: :( :( :(

*after the class settles down, he brief for report and gives the other set of results*

Us: *whisper whisper discuss discuss*

Prof G: *Looking at us* HUSH. or I shall give the whole class extension but not your group.

Us: *GASSSP!* Eyes blink blink~! EXTENSION! 

Prof Gary: So some of you request for extension. blablabla. You can hand in the week after next week since I'm not around. 

Us: YESSSS!

Awww, what a kind professor we have here. Extension of not only 3 days but 1 week + 3 days!

----------------------

Me: Mum, you know, Von's mum made us ginger tea/drink and I drank half a cup. eeee super spicy lo!

Mum: -.-~ Healthy drinks you complain, ice you drink alot.

Me: WAHAHA of course ma

Mum: ... and I haven't even make you drink 'ba zhen' every month

Me: ....

Dad: Let her try the bitter liang cha

Me: *runaway*

......

hahahaha

-----------------------------

Me: I haven't watch TVD. Should I watch it? *I'm supposed to be studying for quiz*

Ting: What? When de?

Me: Last week lo

Ting: So long ago. have a break la, watch one hour only ma.

Me: I break very long dee wor. No mood study. Cannot rmb also.

Ting: GOOD! Since cannot rmb then just watch tvd la. Study tmr.

Me: Thanks for finding excuses for me to watch. I on my lappie now!

Ting: Welcome

HAHAHA

This Ting knows me too well

So off I go to watch TVD

:)